Dear Diary,

So, I'm really bad at keeping a journal so this post will be for that purpose. This may or may not be the last child, so I'm trying to document everything I possibly can. Consider this a warning, if you don't care, leave now.

I am 12 weeks pregnant with baby #3. I'm due March 20, 2010. But of course a little earlier due to my scheduled c-section. I'm really hoping that shes a girl. Have you heard of the book "The Secret"? If you have, then you'll understand why I refer to the baby as a she.

We are so excited for her to join our family! Luckily it didn't take as long as Roman did. So, for that we are grateful. I have been pretty sick this time around. There was a week where my mom came to visit and I literally laid on the couch for a week. My poor husband. I started taking B-6 and unisom. Not strong enough. So, about a week ago, I got on some stronger stuff and it has worked like a charm. It makes me SUPER tired and I eat a ton! But I would take that any day over puking my guts out.

This pregnancy has been similar to my last two. But I must say, I think I feel a little better this time around, sadly. (sad cause I'm still sick) I haven't thrown up nearly as much so things are looking up. Which is another reason why its totally a girl. ;)

The other things on my mind are where to put the baby. I put Roman in a big boy bed this past week and he loves it. But as soon as the baby comes, I will put the boys together in Gavin's room. She will be moving into Romans room. So we are working on the bedroom situation as we speak.

Im also wondering whether I should potty train Roman before the baby comes. He will be 2 1/2 when she is born. Any suggestions? Gavin trained so easily thanks to "Toilet Training in Less Than a Day". But I have a feeling I won't be as lucky with Roman. But who knows?

Roman is super cute. He talks to my belly. "Hi bebe!" He says. And Gavin is really excited and tells everyone that I have a baby in my belly. They will be great big brothers.

I always said If you can handle 1 kid, 2 is nothing. But I hear that 3 is a doozie. I don't know if its because you are out numbered. Or your youngest is too young, or whatever the case may be... I'm a little nervous about having 3. Gavin will be 6 1/2 but that doesn't mean he's easy. Roman is attached to me at the hip. I'm thinking he might be trouble around a new baby.

I was informed by my husband that this is definately the last baby cause I'm such a pain in the butt. Or something like that. But seriously, I do feel bad for my poor hubby. The house is a disaster, he rarely gets dinner and he is a doormat for all things that annoy me. I'm trying not to be one of those people that all they talk about is being pregnant. So, please tell me if I become that. That is the worst.

So anyway, these are my thoughts. Feel free to share anything you are thinking. It feels good to write things down.